I know that all of this has been my fault And that I can fix it with just one phone call But I've been drinking again Just seven letters Dan, just click send But I'm in no mood to talk and I just make it worse No I don't think I'm wrong Bet you thought I'd just let this go Tell everyone to look out below I'm getting tired of having weeks Where I'm getting just about 13 hours of sleep It's weighing down too much on me And I don't expect you to understand I wake up to a trial or a sentencing I'm losing patience, will to live, and all of my dreams I need something to get me through post college blues Bet you thought I'd just let this go Tell everyone to look out below I never got a chance to say how much I hate you I'm not gonna let this one go, I'm not gonna let this go I'm not gonna let this one go, I'm not gonna let you go

I need to stop sleeping with the shades pulled down By the thoughts in my head that's been up in the clouds Come and go, changing shape, as the wind blows them by The time I open up my mind, I've already lost my mind I pour my heart out into the glass house Lost so much blood I think I might pass out It's still half empty, it's not enough Come help me drown and come top me off If size doesn't matter what's the difference Between a knife and a dagger, is it intent? (It's just a matter of leverage Take what you can get Give nothing back) We go from two step to tango This torturous transformation Is tearing my teeth from your tender skin Time and time again I make this mistake I trust myself not to trust what I may Or may not consider the wrong thing to say Like I love you, I need you, but please go away I pour my heart out into the glass house Lost so much blood I think I might pass out It's still half empty, it's not enough Come help me drown and come top me off If size doesn't matter what's the difference Between a knife and a dagger, is it intent? (It's just a matter of leverage Take what you can get Give nothing back) I pour my heart out into the glass house Lost so much blood I think I might pass out It's still half empty, it's not enough Come help me drown and come top me off (When you touch yourself and remember how good I felt I hope you think of him and relive all your guilt It's time we grow up, it's time we both moved on We can't keep doing something we both know is wrong And when you touch your neck remember the marks I left I hope you look at him and know that you feel less Than you did for me 'cause now you're second best You can have your life and I'll have my revenge)

Feels like my feet are made of lead My ass is anchored to my bed Go fuck yourself and fancy car I'm still amazed I got this far I could make a living digging ditches Look at this hole I dug myself It's a tomb for all my demons A pit for all my witches Pretty soon I'll break through the sky of hell We've all been pretty depressed lately Wondering how we've ended up where we are Questioning the choices we've made that lead us there Did we miss something critical while we were staring at the clock? Is it ok to feel regret for how we once felt? To feel like we've wasted our time enjoying ourselves when we should have been enriching ourselves? Are we the ones responsible for our faults? I could make a living digging ditches Look at this hole I dug myself It's a tomb for all my demons A pit for all my witches Pretty soon I'll break through the sky of hell I can't believe the man I've become I lack all the things I need to survive And hoard all the things that keep me numb Safe away from the world outside All I want is someone to hear me To find some meaning in these words I can't move on with all these feelings And the thought of failure makes it worse

I've got no obligation to see this to completion I don't owe you your happy ending The scars I burned into my skin Remind me of the times we spent Believing everything we did Would count for something in the end And I never said That I'd get through this I never volunteered to be your hero You're just as mad as I am And I can't blame you Without blaming myself The scars I burned into my skin Remind me of the times we spent Believing everything we did Would count for something in the end But now I look back and I see How foolish children might believe A hopeless battle could be won Can't turn back time it can't be done

I'm not a quiet kid You're just an idiot Please tell me that I'm weird and I'll tell you that I agree with it It's not that I have nothing to say You might as well be deaf Small talk is my personal hell, your time isn't worth my breath From the back of class I watch, as the jokers make their jokes Talking out of line while the fools just take their notes I'll just sit here til the bell, I've got better things to do They're all safe inside my head, safe away from all of you I'm not a quiet kid I could talk for hours if I thought anybody cared, even just the slightest bit It's not that I have nothing to say You just wouldn't care at all What goes on inside my head should put me between padded walls The girls goes by in their low cut shirts and I just watch here from the wall I have no idea why I'm here, this party wasn't worth the walk I'll just stand here with my drink, this shitty music's way to loud I can still hear myself think and that's all I care about I'm not a quiet kid You're just an idiot The time that I spend all alone, you're damn right I cherish it It's nothing really personal And I don't mean to offend The words that come out of your mouth, just can't fit inside my head I don't care about your weekend, I don't care about your wife I don't care about your huge exams, I don't live your life I don't care about the weather, I don't care about your mom I don't care about the girls at work, I don't care if you all drown I'm no psychiatrist But I'll listen if you insist I won't tell you I don't care but in my head I'm thinking it I don't care about your baseball team, I don't care about your kids Oh just stop I beg you please, can you hear me? read my lips I'm not a quiet kid You're just an idiot Please tell me that I'm weird and I'll tell you that I agree with it It's not that I have nothing to say You might as well be deaf Small talk is my personal hell, your time isn't worth my breath

Prom night, 2009 I looked great in my suit and tie Showed up without a date But before the night got too late Our eyes met across the room And I thought that it was way too soon She took me by the hand and showed me how to be a man The lights were low and her parents weren't home Oh my god, who the hell did you learn that from? No, no, don't stop, a little faster now I spent many nights alone practicing But I never factored in balancing Holy shit, it just feels so good I'm a repeat offender and I'm knocking on wood Am I moving too fast? Are these cuffs made to last? Grab a handful of hair and tell me I'm the best We heard your dad come in the front door I left my underwear on your bathroom floor Through the window I made my escape With a big, fucking smile on my face We silently said goodbye Eric picked me up 'cause I still couldn't drive But then your boyfriend found out So we got better at sneaking around Holy shit, it just feels so good I'm a repeat offender and I'm knocking on wood Am I moving too fast? Are these cuffs made to last? Grab a handful of hair and tell me I'm the best Shut your mouth and keep your eyes on me Keep your feet in the air and let your hands roam free Don't you let them hear you gasp Handprints up and down your ass It's so hard to hold it steady when you're arching your back Sitting in the back row of chemistry class Spent the last 4 years staring at her ass Finally got a chance to make her all mine 6 months in and it seems to be going fine Head to her house when I get out of work But now I'm thinking I'm sort of a fucking jerk Pulling out front of her family home Can't wake her parents so I dim the lights real low That's when I saw the craziest sight This dude ass naked running into the night Now I know for sure I'm down on my luck "Cause I just lost my girl to some curly headed fuck

I hate you, you suck

Silhouettes can never die No regrets, now it's a lie Everything was going right Would only ever end in trite The body jigsawed in with mine It's packed her things and gone to find A man who has a stronger spine You left me naked, cold, and blind Go on, go on, pretend this is the end I'll never be a lover turned friend You'd shoot me down but I'll do it myself With the safety on and the gun in my belt Silhouettes can never cry Alone in my bed I will lie My empty chest misses your ear My heartbeat you will never hear I'm missing pieces left and right Submitted to the passing light Forgiveness you will never find You left me naked, cold, and blind Go on, go on, pretend this is the end I'll never be a lover turned friend You'd shoot me down but I'll do it myself With the safety on and the gun in my belt These words on the tip of my tongue Are the only thing I'm hanging from I'll use my teeth to make a wall And shout them back up as I fall It broke my heart to make you cry I never once told you a lie Forgiveness you will never find You left me naked, cold, and blind Go on, go on, pretend this is the end I'll never be a lover turned friend You'd shoot me down but I'll do it myself With the safety on and the gun in my belt Suck my dick, I don't need your help

Admit it or not, but you're giving up You think I lied again so I've lost your trust It seems like I just can't do enough for you to believe in us You've asked this question a thousand times I'm not sure what you think you'll find Can we try to leave this mess behind? I guess I'll wait for you to explain just how we ended up this way It's cold in that bed by yourself It's cold in that cell down in hell This is so stupid, you draw conclusions from the smallest clue A wild accusation about a time and place and it never turns out to be true All I hear is excuses, all I get from you is that this time you'll change Between the promises you make and the promises you break I don't know what I can believe It's cold in that cell down in hell, isn't it? It's cold up there on your pedestal, isn't it? (If I said I knew everything would I be telling the truth?) And is that good enough for you anyway? You know you're tearing us apart, we can't take the strain If good intentions mattered we'd be home by now But the story's not over, let's see how it ends I'm hoping for a happy ending cautiously

Well I don't know what I'm put here to do I'm drying up in all this social glue Am I a disappointment to you? That's okay, I feel the same way too I'm getting way too old for this Same old shit drowned in different piss I'm tired of the way my will began to break Under the pressure to be a good boy Well I don't know what I'm put here to do I'm drying up in all this social glue Am I a disappointment to you? That's okay, I feel the same way too I don't know why everything I try to say comes out wrong the first time I fumble my words, I stumble and stir just to get it out right I don't think it out, I just spit it out and then you start to cry I'm subtle, sincere, and though you can't here I mean every word No more, I can't Can't believe I got this weak How did this happen to me? You don't like me? Well fuck you too I don't give a damn about you I'm tired of your attitude You can do better? Well good for you Bleach me out and I'll stay blue Don't change me, I won't change you What was that? I can't hear you Lalalalala, fuck you too

Do our mistakes define us? Can we even change? Will you ever forgive me or is it just a waste? To drinking and smoking and keeping you here It's been a week, it's been a month, we're pressing on a year Does my silence define me? Breaking it would probably break you to Breaking apart and breaking your heart seemed like all that I could do And if i could explain, then I would I'd give you all the answers you know I should Put the whiskey back on the shelf But I don't have those answers myself So did I redefine us from something rare to this? We never felt like a shot in the dark but we wound up a swing and a miss I know that it's hard for you to trust Somebody that hurt you so much But just give me a shot and I swear that I won't let you down Does my silence define me? Breaking it came close to breaking you Breaking apart and breaking your heart seemed like all that I could do And if i could explain, then I would I'd give you all the answers you know I should Put the whiskey back on the shelf But I don't have those answers myself